Mattress broken, strong wind from the north, nothing to see, lonely, shitty road, tiny problem with the bike. Hard to find something positive today, I want to give up, but what would I do if I did? The best way to give up now is to keep moving forward, but I wouldn’t say I am enjoying it. I decide to stop as there is just to much anger inside me. I literally swear at everything.
I know from this paper: “Mild dehydration impairs cognitive performance and mood of men” that it also affect mood and it can make you angrier from anxiety. From the paper “Mood states also were adversely affected by dehydration, with fatigue/inertia significantly increasing both at rest and during exercise, and tension/anxiety scores elevated at rest, findings that are consistent with the adverse effects observed on cognitive performance” Source
So I stop in the shade, the place is nice, in the woods, and spend some time just drinking water, a bit of food, and a sort of mindfulness session before phone calls. 1 hour later, I am back on the bike and reminded very quickly how brutal the wind is. At least it is sunny, full blue sky, warm going up hills, and cold when going down. The rest of day actually goes much better, I take my time, try to stay positive, and listen to “Affaires Sensibles” until the camping. It is nice, I take a shower, cook a barbecue, and then watch TV in bed before sleep. I think I will not bike tomorrow, this place is nice.
The day could have been way worse, it actually would have been great day for many people, but my energy levels were off today and it makes hard to keep going.
